Wednesday, June 25, 2008

What a beautiful morning....

Today, Glade decided that she was going to start screaming at three this morning and have it not end until six thirty. It was awful. She didn't want anything to drink, she didn't want her pacifier, she didn't want to lay on me, she didn't want to lay on her dad, she didn't want to play on the floor.....she didn't want to do anything except cry.

She would sleep for five minutes, then wake up for ten and cry. I think it was the worst night since she was born. Quite funny that that was almost a year ago.

I guess I can just be thankful that she did go to sleep at six thirty. She could still be crying right now. I would have lost my mind by now. I truly think so.

But I love her and that is all that matter, right??

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Oh goodness....

We got home yesterday and it is wonderful being in our own space again. There are no words to describe the awesomeness of it.
We bought a hamster today. He is a little dwarf hamster and he is so cute. We named him Guido (from Cars) and I love him. He bit me because I was trying to hold him, but it happens. I can hold him soon enough.

Glade has an intestinal virus. She is not doing too good right now. She is either throwing up or crying or sleeping. She sleeps more than she did as a newborn. It's really weird. She won't eat or anything, so she is on a steady diet of pedialyte. She pees all the time, but at least she isn't dehydrated!!

She is now fifteen pounds two ounces, and I can't believe it. She has gotten so big and I love every bit of her. She has this cute gut on her and everything else is tiny. She is such a cute baby. I love her to death.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Moving back!!

We are officially moving back to Cedar next Monday. There is no way we can stay here. It is just too much stress. I would rather be dirt poor than ever live with my family ever again.

We will be there, so anyone interested, you can come by anytime, Monday to Thursday and we will definitely be there!!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

The quiet of the night

There are just sometimes after everyone is asleep that you would swear everything can talk. You lie awake and listen to the creek of the house, or the wind blowing against your window. In this quiet, you think about your day and in that, your failures and your achievements. You wonder why you do certain things and then puzzle how you came out for the better with everything. You look at your family while they sleep and wonder how you came to deserve such wonderful people in your life. Even at their worse, they would do anything for you, not matter what it is.

It is in this quiet of the night that you begin to realize why God put you here in the first place. You think of his plan for you and wonder how you even can understand the workings of such an awesome being. You have learned so much in your life that you can't possibly begin to understand his cunning and purpose. You make a pact to yourself that the next day you will strive to do better and that nothing will get in your way of trying to be Christlike. But the next night, you are thinking much of the same things.

Maybe life is supposed to be like that. You know your shortcomings and what you need to do to succeed, but you always come back to the beginning. Your life is a giant circle that never stops. But somehow you know the ending will be good as long as you try your hardest.

I wonder how my life came to be the way it is. I have a very loving husband and a beautiful daughter. I love them with every fiber of my being. But how did I come to deserve this? Sometimes I think that maybe it is all a test of how I will handle being in such a wonderful life. Crazy as this thought is, it might be true.

But then again, who am I to know the true knowledge of God's plan? Maybe he has something completely different planned for me, or for everyone for that matter. Sometimes, I truly do wish the house could talk and let me know what it is thinking.